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Single again.
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My girlfriend left me. I had to try again with a woman because I was ashamed of myself. I tried to fuck her but I could not stay hard. I guess we had actual sex about 4 times in about a year and a half of living together. I was Pussyfree for around 5 years before we met and I think that I have to just give up on the idea of a relationship working with a woman. I am terrified of dating men, but only because I am afraid of what everyone will say. I openly dated a man when I was in my early twenties. He was also in his early twenties, but he was comfortable with being gay. He told me he did not want me to wear lingerie or lipstick, so I stayed masculine for him. I still felt uncomfortable about myself when we were out. Everyone knew I was his bitch, and I enjoyed that title, but the men in our friend group would still challenge me and assert their dominance over me, and the women in our friend group would still approach me as if I was a bisexual man. After a few weeks of being out my daddy asked me if I minded if he called me his bitch around other people. I was so excited when he introduced me as his bitch. Eventually our friend group asked him if they could refer to me as "bitch." My daddy asked me when we went back to his place if I was ok with that. I told him I was happy to be his bitch, and I was, but when I asked again about wearing makeup he told me no. So, I was stuck with just being his bitch, and I felt that I owed it to him to stay masculine. Looking back on it, I regret that I fell apart after we broke up. I was lost and alone again, and I was questioning if I was even bisexual. I still could not understand myself. I dated my best friend after I broke up with my first daddy. She and I were very close, and it made sense at the time. I dated my bestie for about ten months. She ended the relationship and started fucking all the guys I knew when I itted that I cheated on her with a few men while we were first starting to date. I was single for a long time after that. I did not know how to date a woman, and I was confused about how I felt about myself dating a man again. Now that I am single again, I am going to explore myself before I commit to another person. I know that if I am not satisfied with a man or a woman, it means that I am not satisfied with myself. When I would crossdress in secret I would always be so nervous to be found out. Now that I'm older I realize that being afraid of what everyone will say and think is not as important as my mental health. Maybe I am just a sissy. Maybe I am trans. I am going to find out before I commit to another relationship. I am going to find out who I am. I am not defined by the sex of my partner. I am so scared to do this alone, though. It is finally time to put on my big gurl panties! Tell me what you guys think? Trans or sissy?
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Posted on : Aug 16, 2026
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