My insecurities are once again bothering me, and I feel I have no one to actually talk to anymore. My friends are all gone, moved out of state, gotten married, having kids. I feel I'll never be a real man with my small penis, but I also feel like I'll never be a good sissy or femboy with my fat hairy body. I've lost a lot of weight, but I've got so far to go still. I just turned 30 and I don't want to be like the fat hairy old guys who post their pics on here. No offense to them, but I kinda feel like most people get to a certain point where you just shouldn't really cross dress anymore. Some people never really have what it takes to be feminine. I know one thing, I can't justify taking hormones since I don't have gender dysphoria. I'm not sure what my sexuality will be like when I'm 40 or 50. Maybe it doesn't really matter. It makes me sad to think about it.

There are some people who experimented with same sex relationships when they were younger but have since lived a straight lifestyle. They'll say that they find youthful people of the same sex attractive, but the thought of being with an older person or person of the same age doesn't do it for them.Maybe some people who have been with men but now only pursue women were more attracted to androgyny. So, when they were young and experimenting with another boy who hasn't developed body hair and other secondary sexual traits, they are attracted to them.